A cup of coffee

Its so weired that i struggle to wake up early when i have to go to work, but when it comes to weekend's i end up waking up extremly early! I mean i really wanna sleep even more long hours than the usual, but I guess my body's clock gets too excited friday nite, that its not willing to waste its precious sat's and sunday's. Well isn't that the same for all of us...

Still woke up a little groggy today as it was only 6.50ish, well.. went down straight to the kitchen (Shower was not anytime soon btw)..took the pot, filled the water up and straight on the fire it went. Went to the counter, Open that precious looking nescafe bottle took a deep breath of that godly aroma, close the cap and wait for mr.water to boil up. Boiling, took my must have, my mug, my only mug, only my own mug alrite . Anyway open that nescafe cap again, took a spoon of it, took a deep breath of that heavenly aroma again, it goes in the mug, a little bit of white sugar for taste, hot water and a little condense milk, all mixed up ready to save my day. My starter, my good mood maker, my comfort, my cozyness and my fantastic morning and day starts with that mug of coffee.. ahhhhhh.. opps sorry.. just took a sip :p .. what wonders can coffee do.. Oh just realising what i did this moment, i actually close my eyes all the time when when i sip them. Well it surely makes it taste better..

Anyway i can't wait for my Saturday. Lots of things to do today. Firstly meeting rujjy boy at 9.30 in brickfields. Going for some good mamak breakfast. Then going to midvalley. Some minor shopping. We are getting something for his dad's birthday which was the 16th this past wed actually. We still have no idea on what to get. Its always difficult to get stuffs for guy. The gift are just to limited for them. After that oh ya need to get the ticket for movie at 9.30pm.. That new 3D movie. I must watch it, well i always had this facination for 3D. Weired huh. Again, after that we have to go to MPH its been a long time and wanted to get some books from there. Iam so excited.. hmm... and then.. looks like thats about it. Will be back home by evening. Oh ya, i am making the dessert of the week which is White chocolate mousse, with dark chocolate sauce. This time i will post it on my blog with the recipe, ofcourse if it turn successffull. After that rujjy will be fetching me to go for the movie. After that we are meeting up some friends for some catching up.. Phew.. what a saturday.. its gonna be..

Ok then its gonna get let, have to get ready now... adios amigo..

Dasavatharam

Though i have watched "Dasavatharam" for more than i think a month ago now, the story keeps making me to hunt for more information on the screenplay. Some or rather this movie gave me the chill’s and the interest to find out more about the hidden meaning as how "Da Vinci Code" made an impact to me. Mystery, History and hidden secrets are something that can pull us in to another world, in which both of this movie's did. In the beginning i had no idea that Dasavatharam will be revolving around the 10 avatharams of Vishnu. I was completely ignorant about it, which of course i blame myself for it. I just watched it as a big fan of Kamal. But after watching the movie only i received an email (Which i have attached below) that explained what the hidden meaning of the movie was all about, and coincidently i watched the movie again. Then, i understood the initial base or the hidden brilliance of this movie dasavatharam.. I wonder how can i miss to understand, to remember that this man Kamal Hassan would have made a movie with 10 roles in it, without a hidden meaning, or a historical background or something uniquely different. He was always different and i thought this was maybe just another movie. Well shame on me for thinking like that.. and thank god i changed my opinion immediately.. Well folks,
Check out the explanation below... i guess many have read already.. but do check it.. its a nice read and explanation..



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Dhasaavatharam rocks.....the truth about this super movie....
Message: If you knew the real dasavatharams of Lord Vishnu and their characters you can appreciate the script more. Let me explain, starting with the best adapted role:

1. Krishna avatar - Vincent Poovaraghavan
Lord krishna is actually a dalit, he is dark-skinned [shyamalam]. He saved draupadi when she was being violated and he was the actual diplomat in mahabharatham. Lord krishna dies of an arrow striking his lower leg. Now look at how vincent was introduced.. he appears when asin is about to be molested and he saves her like draupadi. Vincent is the dalit diplomat, fights for land issue [soil issue to be exact] and dies from the metal rod striking his leg. Oh even five of vincent's men are drugged at P. Vasu's.. sounds familiar???

2. Balarama avatar - Balarama naidu
This is an easy given. as the name suggests and the role personifies you can easily get it.

3. Mathsya avatar - Ranagaraja nambi
nambi is thrown into water in an act of trying to save lord from being thrown into sea, though vainly. what more clue do you want?

4. Varaha avatar - Krishnaveni paatti
During the mukunda song, krishnaveni paatti does varaha avatar in the shadow puppetry. The frame freezes on it for a second. there is the clue. Moreover, in varaha avatar lord actually hides earth so as to protect life forms. Here too krishnaveni hides the germs - life form inside the statue so as to protect.

5. Vamana avatar - Kalifulla khan
remember in vamana avatar, lord vishnu takes the vishvaroopa, that is the giant form! Hence the giant kalifulla here symbolises vamana avatar.

6. Parasurama avatar - Christian Fletcher
Parasurama is actually on an angry killing spree and killed 21 generations of the particular kshatriya vamsa. Hence the real KILLER... Guess what thats what our Fletcher is! He comes around with the gun [modern upgrade for axe] and kills everyone around. I have to check if he kills 21 people though. :-D

7. Narasimha avatar - Shingen Narahashi
first of all the name itself is a play on the words singam [means lion in tamil] and narasimha [the avatar being symbolised]. Lord Narasimha manifests himelf to kill the bad guy and he also teaches prahaladha. In the movie, he shows up to kill the killer fletcher! and is also a teacher.. Lord Narasimha had to kill the asura with bare hands and hence the martial arts exponent here.. get it?

8. Rama avatar - Avatar Singh
Lord Rama stands for the one man one woman maxim, kind of symbolising true love.. Here Avatar portrays that spirit by saying that he loves his woman more than anything and wants to live for her.

9. Kalki avatar - Govindaraj Ramasamy
As you know, the hero in kaliyug can be none other than the Kalki avatar!!!

10. Koorma avatar - Bush
This is the most loose adaptation I couldn't clearly comprehend. But if you look at the real koorma avatar, the lord is the turtle/tortoise that helps in stirring the ksheera sagara and bringing out the amruth. This essentially creates war among the devas and asuras. Similarly today Bush facilitates war between you know whom... May be Kamal also indicates that this avatar is a bit dumb like the tortoise...

you see...now u knw what does the movie trying to tell you....a super-duper movie.....kamal rocks.....

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SICK.. but not because of DANCING

I feel pathetically sick today after a long time. I've been sick since Sunday.. and it got worse this Monday.. today i am feeling a lil better. Most of them that i know are sick.. the virus was hopping around happily with its ugly teeth and fierce eyes as i could imagine.. "sigh" this is so de-motivating..

Last Sunday was my first bharathanatyam class with Master Sri Anand. My new Guru whom is going to polish me into my pre-arangetram training. It was a tough, but an awesome class. Though i came back with that famous thigh-breaking pain.. i enjoyed every single minute of that 2 hour class.. oh and yes, He is actually my fourth Dance Guru.

I started my dance journey at the age of 6 to 9 with Geetha shankaran under the school Fine Arts, but i was learning Oddissi at that time. After about 3 years of moving the oddissi moves dad suggested me to learn the art of bharatham. Of course at that time anything was ok for me when it comes to dancing. But the actual reason i moved to another variety of dance was because Dad claimed that oddissi was a bit to slow and for 3 years i was still doing the basics. Well no prejudice here, but if many noticed.. oddissi is performed by dancers whom are almost 11 and plus. This is because there is a need of maturity when you dance oddissi as oddissi is heavily based on "rasa" and "perfection". Well that is why when you start young as a child you wont perform but the Guru's will train and polish you so that you will be just nice when your at the age of showing and portraying that art, as an involved and mature dancer. Sometimes i do regret why i didn’t continue to learn oddissi. Well at that time, i was not able to make any justifications but i am still very very happy to be a bhratham dancer. Luckily i stood for my rights to continue this art no matter what. But of course all this would have not appeared just like that. I have great motivating parents that encouraged me to dance and perform till today. This is something i can't thank them much. To give me this freedom to be in a different world when i dance.. and dance and dance...

Well coming from where i left earlier. After my last day with Guru Geetha, dad enrolled me under the school of Jeya Nirtha Kalalayam when i was trained under Guru Sironmani Sri Kumuthini Sivanathan.. I was learning under her for 11 years. It was under her that i performed my solo "salangai pooja" dance performance at the age of 16 ' year 1997'. Btw "Salangai poojai" is a ceremonial dance performance where the dancer will be wearing the "Salangai" or leg bell ornaments which will be worn by her Dance Guru for the first time. This ceremony is to tell the audience that this is my first school graduation and from now onwards i am allowed to perform infront of many people, Because without having the salangai pooja, we are not allowed to dance with the salangai in front of people (Ofcourse now many of these traditions have change ;) ) hence after the ceremony i performed 7 songs in between 3 hours to potray my knowledge in this art... That was a day i will never forget. Together with excitement and nervousness i danced.. with all my heart.

After learning under Guru Kumuthini, i had to pause my classes as i was pursuing my degree course. And after 3 to 4 years i joined another Guru under her dance school Jeyashree Bharatha Alayam as Kumuthini teacher was not teaching much due to her age catching up on her. I was 23 then. Wasn’t i only 23 but i think i gained about 10Kg's to 15Kg due to my Degree Course break. Damn! that break of 3 to 4 years changed my lifestyle. Well nothing much actually, i was not doing anything else but studying, eating and sleeping.. and all the pounds creped on me easily. At that time when i joined Jeyashree teacher even worst complications came that i could not continue my classes as usual because of my ridiculous shift hours at work. I was in Shell by then after my degree. Due to that i attended classes inconsistently. Though i could still perform in temple's and in school dance drama's for the last 3 year i was inconsistent with my weekly classes that left me with doubt on whether i would be able to perform my arengetram. At that time, which was about few months ago my dance Guru Jeyashree whom was 6 months pregnant said that she might not have classes anymore due to her future new born, and that took me by shock. But the best part was before i could tell jeyashree akka about my dream she quickly told me “i will suggest you to My guru Master Sri Anand, and he will prepare your for your arangetram” and so on. I was overjoyed with happiness. Although i received many warnings that he is extremely strict, i only had one thing in my mind.. well all Guru's are strict and I am going there to learn about being an arangetram student.. perhaps a dance teacher one day... so what.. i put their scary statements aside and attended class last Sunday. And to my amazement, with my respect to him... he was teaching me with much happiness. I think he could see in my eyes that i had passion for this dance.. thank God...

Well coming back to my first para, why am i pulling my dance story in.. hmm.. oh ya.. because my mom said that i got sick because of my dance class.. i was like what!! No way.. it can't be it.. and all.. I was actually sick, but to proof my mom wrong about the dance part, i practiced my dance on Monday evening.. During that practice i was perfectly alright.. i was back to normal.. that i was prepared to go to work the next day. But it didn’t seem so. Tuesday told me to stay on bed completely. Mom’s warning was true.. but there goes another day.. ”Well I told you.. but you don’t listen to me.. miow miow miow” and I got even worst. Medication surely did help me today though. I am much better now.. just that my throat is aching. Luckily i only had to type here.. not talk or else i think there will be vomiting blood.. "isk isk"

Anyway this is my personal note.. sick sick go away, please don’t come another day...i can't wait to practice my dance.. or else i might get that scolding that i am trying to avoid this Sunday.. go away .. go away.. hush hush…

Please go away.....

P/S Arangetram is a dance performance that has tough beats, steps, deep expressions and moves with a challenging stamina that tests a dancer to proof to the audience and her Guru that she/he is a qualified dancer. From there she/he could choose to undergo training of nattuvangam (a musical instrument to be used in dance performance) to be a Guru. From there on this qualified Guru can begin to run her own school to nurture this art.

Here In My Home

In the mood today to watch this video again. Something so simple and straight forward but yet so powerful and special.. I salute to each and one of them whom made this video a success. Actually it was not only the video but the whole idea of actually doing something like this to tell and educate each one of us that this is a small world so why not we just be together.
We may not love each and everyone, but we should have love for all.... and Here in My home surely proved us right...





Saving our world by being united and civilized and all.. is something that many have been doing from our ancestors time... but nothing changed.. and to make matters worst.. Its all getting bitter and uglier now..

Everyone knows how disunited we have been including childrens. They are talking about politics. A child now days are too smart that they have their own opinion’s and views. Well, they didn’t just come up with it and politics was not among them, but its from how their teacher's are treating them. How they are seeing their parents condemning each and all, what they are seeing on screen, and trust me even kids now days know what’s hidden on TV’s and who is lying and not... Gosh... answering their questions are not easy but crucial as what we see out of them now.. is what parents of “that time” didn’t see in their kids.. which made them the type of leaders they are today...

What goes comes back to us. Just imagine.. having a huge cannon ball chasing at the back of you.. and your running at the face of earth.. where there is no end and your taking rounds and rounds around the earth trying to escape from the huge cannon ball squashing on you and then when you turn to take a glimpse of it.. Puff!! your dead. Well who unchained the cannon? The person who was chased by the cannon did. Law of life. What you do comes back to you. When you look at the sky and throw a stone straight up.. its not going to escape to the air just like that.. it will take a U-turn and hit your nose straight!. This is how I always picture many of them.. Them I mean is "THEM". Every time you see them bulls!@#! ing on screen, you can see that fear in them.. sometimes I have a laugh when I image them running being chased.. being chased with large balls of money.. huge balls of anger from the people.. huge balls of what they've cheated.. huge balls of “vaithe erichal” they say that as “stomach burning” in tamil. Just name it.. I have imaged much and it just disgust me, thinking how they can do this. Don't they have the same heart like all.. How did these sweet children turn to become angels and the rest devils.. Who is to be blamed? The teacher who was showing biasness to the kids at that time are doing the same now. Just that someone else has taken over that role and doing the same to the kids now. Parents who we condemning at the time are doing the same now with their children in front of their grandchildren...

It's revolving, so do you think we will see peace and harmony any time soon? Well, I don’t think so at least not for the time I am still going to be alive in the world. I am only highlighting the bad here, which obviously doesn’t means I don’t eagerly wait for the good, but as how the bad was revolving over the years.. the same goes to the good to.. well hopefully.

Lucky the kids who have learnt the goodness to be loving and giving, and unlucky the kids who have mastered the bad.. to make things even worst for the future..

I always feel we are living in Hell with a few islands around us, which is Heaven. A place where the Bad is conquering and the Good is surviving...

All I can say is... I don’t love you, but I have love for you my brother..

Peace

My missing self...

I can't believe it, the eagerness i had to setup my own blog isn't there when it comes to filling up the pages. Gosh i've missed so many updates that i wanted to write. well shamelessly i am going to blame my job, for all the time that i don’t seem to have these days to update my own blog!..

Actually I’ve been working in Shell for almost 3 1/2 years. Turning 4 this coming october25 to be precise. For the last 3 and a quarter year i've been working as a Unix Linux Administrator, in which was a job that i could easily find at least about 2 hours of free time out of my 9 hours of work.. to blog and watch youtube and friendster and malaysiakini.. and ..well just name it. I had been to work with the comfort that i'll always have plenty of time to explore everything i wanted to (which is not what shell is paying me for la, but i still had to do justice with the equipment's and facilities give aite :p ).. but all of that kinda took a backseat now.. gosh...

Sometimes we fight so much to move forward.. you know.. i want a better job and a better salary and all of that.. and with all my hard work in pushing my bosses to promote me after a good 3 years.. i at last got a better job.. i wont say its my dream job... cause my dream job is to settle at home and run my very own bharathanatyam class.. but i did get promoted.. quite high than i expected. Well of course it didn't come easily. Now i am happily a Unix/Linux Systems Engineer.. and i am not proud about it but I am happy about it. I am stressing happy here because i feel there is a difference of being proud and happy, and i always choose the latter cause i feel proud is nothing else but self boast that comes with a huge ego and self centered happiness that could not be shared with anyone.. like being in a no man’s island.. Where else happiness is something each person naturally get when they personally achieve something.. and it is here where we should be always happy and humble with our achievement even though it is as big as the mountain’s, as only by being happy and humble other’s will respect us and most importantly when we succeed one day.. the same loved ones will be beside usto pat on our shoulder and say we are still here for you… so what’s the point being proud.. rather be happy with a light heart right..

so coming back.. well actually this job was surely much better and everyday is a new day.. so much to learn.. so much of fun... good bunch of guys to be with and surely.. more exciting.. and best of all is, well this is something everyone or anyone who is working would surely love.. i don’t have a boss (well the boss i mean is like some big china man or china women conquering everyone and running the company you know.. the kinda boss who says.. sit and stand and all that s#!+ !!) and that is so great. I've just got a new boss and she is none other than Vilves.. closer than i thought, she is actually one of the authors in Mindsblog...hehehe.. how small can the world get!! But I am so lucky that I’ve got a manager like vilves.. one of the most most understanding and easy going manager's I’ve ever come across...the good part of this new department was the flexibility they have given us...as in i can come in whenever i want and leave whenever i want as long as the work is complete.. and adding on to that.. i could also work from home if i want. I was in shock.. happy.. then a bit worried.. then a bit confused.. then i was clear and then i was really really happy. I actually found freedom to do my work my style and that is what i call as freedom. it's not about not doing work. i mean i can imagine myself dying out of boredom if i don’t work... but it's about working my way , my style with in my own pace.. which is so much better.. because i can work things out better my way because of this flexibility... but the thing about me not having time to blog comes to the part.. where i am still learning lots of stuffs that my free time is spend in catching up more stuffs and commands and techniques in google..

Well with all this new job happening i don’t seem to have time to check my yahoo!! which is something that i've been doing every 5 days a week without missing them and now i have like 500 emails to clear..

Well this is it.. i better stop here. I think Iam already mumbling to much.. well this is obviously because of my long gone writing skills.. which is going to the drain day by day.. but nevertheless its about time i update this blog at least every 2 days.. oh well at least once a week for a start...
Hope i have something to write about.. adios..